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Archive for February, 2004
Jason is listening to Hip Hop! Can how can this be? Well it’s true. And recently thanks to it’s overplaying here in Japan, I’ve had to chance to get hooked on that Kayne West song, “Through the Wire” It’s pretty catchy and describes the hell he went through after a near fatal accident. I’ll spare you the background on the song, although in the song there is a sample of an older tune that I heard when I was younger. It’s called “Though the Fire” as Sang by Chaka Kahn. Anyways, I realized just how slow that song way and how this rapper was able to add life to a song I thought was pretty much dead. This guy not only survived his own accident, but brought music back from the brink. I’m impressed.
Along those lines, I find the word Chaka and Khan quite funny together. Say them fast! It’s awesome! Khannnn!!!!!
Only in Japan can I hear a Kayne West tune followed by the current theme song to Detective Conan which is then followed by a Jay Z tune and another song from Detective Conan. Later on they played a song from Doraemon and then Outkast’s, “Hey Ya”, all while I was having Sushi at the local sushi place. I ge the best of both worlds in Japan.
Okay, so I went to the 100yen store and was looking around when I came across their vitamin section. I didn’t recognize a single thing. They all had Kanji that was way out there. No telling what some of those vitamins could do to me.
On other note, when I go back to Canada in a few years, I’m thinking of raising myself a nice set of tits. Then I could invited people over and show them off. I’ve heard there is nothing quite like a perky pair of tits to entertain guests. Don’t know what all the buzz about tits is? Well, then I suggest you check out www.nice-tits.org. I posted it just a few weeks ago. Hmmm mmmm!
Well, it’s finally happened. I’ve gone and Seen The Return of The king. I felt kind of funny watching it, because it made me think of the journey I’ve been through. When this trilogy first began, I was in a very different situation then I am now. And now, after having finished watching the film, I look back at the adventures of Frodo and his friends and realize that as their adventure comes to a close, mine is underway. I traveled thousands and miles, and changed my life completely. I’ve bid adieu to loved one, and have marched on the other things. I was thinking about what Frodo said at the end of the film. About how life had changed him so much that he could no longer get back to living life the way he used to. Some cuts never fully heal and some pain is just too deep (I can’t say I’ve really had a difficult life, so I can’t explain the reasons behind the pain, but it’s there.) I feel the same, and realized that with the extent of change, pain and life I’ve lived in the last few years, that I don’t think I can ever go back to living life the way I used to. I feel it’s sad in a way, but I guess it’s something that happens to you. I suppose at the end of my adventure, much like Frodo, I will board a boat to the west. I don’t know where that will take me, but I don’t know if it will be home. I shed a tear at the end of the film, because it finally signaled to me that one chapter of my life was over, and another underway. But for the first time in my life, I can’t see what the outcome will be, or hope to predict it. I may very well spend the rest of my life alone, doomed to wander the planet searching for answer I may never find. I can’t say. Though I feel that I can now deal with this instability. It is changing me, and the way I think. I can now spend long periods of time alone, and not be bothered by it. If I can only rid myself of the need for love and companionship, then I will truly be free of what is haunting me. The Lord of the Rings has taught me one important lesson though, and that is that the only thing I can decide is what to do with the time that is given to me. I’ve never looked back after hearing those words.
Other then all the reflection, the weekend went well. I saw the movie, play some video games, and met the man who used to do my job here. He was visiting from Canada and it was nice to meet someone who has done what I have. Though it’s late, and I am tired. I will speak more when strength has returned to me.
Just to show you all I haven’t lost my sense of humour. I have taken up a new hobby.
Also, things you didn’t know about me. I’m part of an improv group. At least when I’m in Canada. Check it out.
February 14th is the big day. Lord of the Rings:Return of the King opens and I’m finally going to see it. Well, on the 14th we are all gathering to watch the extended versions of the first two and then on the 15th we’re headed out to see the film. It’s going to be so much fun. I think this weekend I will go to another town for a while. I’ve been going a little stir crazy in Senmaya. After being sick and pretty much alone(aside from Japanese speaking coworkers) I think I need a little break. So I will go to Ichinoseki and do some shopping. I only hope it’s warm when I go. In other news, I’ve been playing igo with the math teacher at Fujisawa highs school. Good fun it’s been, and I finally beat him with a three piece handicap. It’s about time. I think I’m getting the hang of this game.
Today’s news in a nutshell. My Flu is now gone and I no longer have any drugs left to take. This is a good thing. Though I will admit, recently, I’ve been feeling a little down. Can’t really say why I’m feeling this way. All I can say is that there is a hole in my soul and for some reason there is an empty spot that will not go away. The last time I felt complete was when I was dating my ex girlfriend. Since then that hole has been there. It hasn’t stopped me from living, but on certain days, I wake up with a knot in my stomach, and wonder what is in store for me today. I’d like to be able to fill that hole, but it doesn’t seem likely. Perhaps religion is the key. I really hate Christianity, so I’m looking into Buddhism. However, I doubt it will help me. I really have no clue what I’m looking for anymore. Perhaps once it starts to get warm here in Japan, I’ll start to feel a little better. Who knows. While, I’m waiting to fill that gap, there are video games to play and areas of Japan(and Asia) left to visit. I’ll keep you updated.
